Thursday, March 10, 2011

On the Threshold

This moment came sooner than I expected. I am now on the threshold of graduating from college. But not so fast. I'm actually in a lot of stress right now. Which is not surprising given the final requirements and all those stuffs. We're even lucky enough to not have our thesis, which is usually everyone's worry. But I find this moment in my life so filled with frustrations.
There are just certain things I want to do as a young person because it will be different doing them as an adult. Graduating in college, for me, is almost like a passage into adulthood. From there, I would have to take on more responsibilities. I'm already expected to find a job and help in our family's expenses. I would have to be matured. I can't play around anymore. I can't be a child anymore. But I'm only 19!
I'd been wanting to have a camera. I would take pictures of everyday life and what I wear whenever I feel like dressing up. I can watch a basketball game and take photos of players in action like a pro! I'll take pictures in school of the guys I'm stalking. I'll take pictures when I'm hanging out with my friends. I'll take pictures of clothes I wanna buy. Then I'll post and blog about all of them.
My first love is arts. I want to learn how to paint life-like scenes. I want to design clothes. I want to decorate home interiors. I want to design houses, structures and buildings. I want to learn how to play the piano. I would sing to my favorite songs and make covers of them and upload them on YouTube. I want to perform on stage. I want to make movies and write stories and poems.
Not coming from a well-off family, I feel restricted from doing these things I love. If only I had been born rich, I would have done all those things. It might sound like a passing fancy, and you might say, hey, everyone wants to do all that too. But believe me, I know I'm meant to do those things and I'll show you I will. Yes, someday I will.
It's the moment in my life when I can't wait to live out my dreams. I want to travel around the world. Learn many languages. Meet many people. Learn other cultures. And just appreciate the beauty of this world.
I just want to be the best I can be. The best me.

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